Crying for a shoulder

Today was such a emotional one. Exactly one year ago. I lost a friend of mine to a heartless crime. I pray for her peace above. Lord has shown me, that time heals but to get to that place it takes faith and patiences. I lay at night & cry alone. Life is so so so short, who really has time for waiting for someone else? We don't? Sometimes life will show you that its time for us to pony up and play the part. Gather your strength, your faith & pride. Depend on yourself cause pain is ONLY felt by the one who is hurt. And no matter how hard we want to take that from another, truth is WE CANT.
So if you love, love hard or don't love at all. Point blank!!!

Risking it all

As I ask myself for the things i am willing to risk. At what cause are you willing to risk it all. It doesn't find me at a lost of words, just a limitation on my wager of what to say.

Mistakes I've made

I have made a mistake. It cost me my pride and re-opened the most painful cut.... But as I prepare to gear-up for damage control. I ask myself! How much did I really gain from giving in. What did I relinquish in the end?

Praying for the abolishment of solitude, in hopes of reconciliation got the best of me.

So I'm again. 2 steps behind where I have peaked. I am 2 steps further from peace and fulfillment. I am two breaks of the heart away from being whole again.

I subjected myself to being honest in my feelings for the comforting sound of the tone in the voice that always seemed to sooth & calm my spirit. All feelings that I have to brace to forget in order to gain control.

I made a mistake & I'm reluctant to saying I am at all proud of it...,.

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This is what got me tonight