Slow start

For the past 10months I have been tip toeing around the true issue. I have allowed myself to be consumed by the false impression that I can continue to live the way I want. I have dragged my body through denial because my heart is deducted from passion. I ask myself everyday:

 "what are you living for?" 

"Why do you love so reckless when luck hasn't loved you?" 

All of which I'm too embarrassed to admit. I fear change! I'm scared that I will begin to diminish from the true person I have built myself up to be. 

I'm scared to ask for help. 

So for the next 6 weeks I have decided to slowly begin to move into a better spiritual acceptance of myself. I realize that I can set goals, deadlines and milestones, but how can I truly benefit from any of those expectations, if my heart doesn't have a buy-in. So I have decided to start slow. So I start my journey here. My expectations are those I hold pure to the cavity of my heart. 

May my journey bring: 

Spiritual wellness 

Physical enhancement 

Mentally growth 

Internal peace  

Chapter 1: the introduction to me

Mikeyonna