Which end is the road heading now

Shine in the sun, but dim in the dark
I never understood that part
Do what you need to get there
Do nothing to stay there
portray to be what you wish
and truly disappoint those you have fooled
Let only god mold your ways
Because tomorrow is never promised today!

What Men & Women should know about Valentines Day

1) It’s never okay to assume you’re someone’s valentine. How about asking? Me personally I think since it’s usually up to the man whether you guys are in a committed relationship or not, going to get married or not. So why not let him do the honors.

2) Valentines Day is a joined appreciation day. It is a day for BOTH men and women to share appreciation and love for one another. So ladies step your game up, we want him to appreciate us and give us things; we need to do the same. It’s a couples day

3) Valentines Day is something that can’t be made up. Sure, u can miss someone’s birthday and send a belated b-day card or call with apologies. But Valentines Day is like an anniversary. It’s a specific day where you let that “One & only special someone” know, this is their day, and u have only them on your mind” If he/she misses this day, more then likely YOUR NOT that “One & only special someone” Sorry, to say but its very true. You should know where to go from there.

4) Cheesy is perfect for Valentines Day. This is a day where cheesy and thoughtful gifts over power quality & quantity. A few examples. Try a handmade card with flowers and a small box of candies. The more thought you put into the day, gets a better point across.

5) Relax. Showing someone that are important to you or expressing your feelings shouldn’t be like Finals. It should come natural and feel natural.

6) Its Okay to enjoy Valentines Day even if your single. For years, I have been single, and it seems no matter how close I get to Valentines Day I never make it, to have that day I have dreamed of. But after awhile of always giving or going all the way out for someone who I thought was special, it always turned out upside down. So if your single, this is a day for you as well, you are surrounded by family and friends who love you. Enjoy this day with them

7) Valentines Day is a day of Love. Don’t ruin it by being salty towards people who are enjoying it. Jealousy is a disease and we have to work on our self infections to start working towards a cure.

8) Become Fearless. Valentines Day is the perfect day to say I love you. If you have felt that you loved someone and really didn’t know how to say it or how the other person would feel about it or you after you have said it. Valentines Day is a perfect excuse. Hell everyone is going to be throwing around “I LOVE YOU” why not you too, take some pressure off by throwing in a playful card that says it. Followed by some verbal bravery.

If u ever loved someone who was trouble

So, i was going to sit and write a blog. But i wasnt too sure on what i should write about. Then this song i was listening to this morning on my way to work popped in my head..Its funny cause i found a old bag in my closet that had some really old cds that i had. One of the cds, wasnt that old but had this song on it by Jazmine Sullivan- After The Hurricane I love that song. I suggest u read the lyrics as the song plays. SO u can grasp the full understanding of what shes talking about http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bawqI6UqKPU

I dont know if my heart is filled with a little anger right now. or just filled with hurt. But all i know is my tears are a product of whatever it is that im feeling..I just dont understand..Its a unknown thing to me. Lord knows i only have great intentions for anything i put my finger on. Hurting someone is last on my list. So why is it that I just continue to get hurt. I just dont understand. I just dont ever seem to be enough. I have fought a battle of trying make a father love me as his only daughter. I cant even succeed at doing that. Someone who is meant to love you no matter what the situation is. No matter what you do, your father is suppose to love you with no restraints. That is where you built the foundation of how you allow another man to treat you. I just dont get it...My heart is in so much hurt. And thru it all I still am so determine to be a good person, all the way from the bottom of my heart. I would never look to purposely hurt anyone. but in return all i get is the opposite. Why is the world so so so so ugly. I have given my all to so many people that i have encounter, but i just continue to lose. The fact of the matter is that, I just continue to allow it to happen, but the purity of my heart wont allow myself to stop it from happen....I dont get it

I seen the signs

How fast does things change...I just dont understand. Feeling like i lost my grip!.Goodnight!

Whats to come of tomorrow

Currently Listening to:
Monica - Once In A Life Time ( a beautiful song)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BkGkAsbEJ2A

Omg...Music is so beautiful...Random but so true. A great song can send the perfect message to someone, in some cases send a message that you cant fix your lips to say. I love it..** sigh**

So i havent had a updating post in a couple of days :( , but its okay! Im here now to give a quick update. Well i have a meeting in the morning at the County of San Bernardino Children Services..* yikes* LEts pray everything goes well. Im so ready to take so many steps in my life. Some I have complete control over, and others I dont. But I have made the decision to focus my attention on the things i have control of..and make those things happen. Im entering a new chapter in my life And right now im at a crossroad. So...Im making moves.

My Motto for the month: Living life on hope will inspire you to live life with love in your heart.

Indifferent Tonight

I spent my night alone tonight...Catching a Open Mic night, i seat in the back at a small coffee table by myself, slowly sipping a Carmel coffee trying to be invisible. I did this, because I'm realizing in my life I live in fear. I need to overcome this some way some how. I figure i start by doing so with my own passion. I wanted to sit back and start build courage. I watch so many brave people. How does one build up so much courage with out taking fear into consideration. With out thinking about what may, will, or could happen? This is something I admire the most in people in general. So afterwards, After a couple of hours of enjoying the show and the comedy show. It was over. & still i had no courage. So as i was gathering my things, One of the guys from the show who was in the comedy part, came over stage and directly towards me..He walked up and said " excuse me, but this has to be your right time, i have never seen you here before? I wanted to crack up laughing. Do i stick out that much. yeah i was the only black person, but WOW! but i said yeah, and he continued on with saying that he would like to see me come more often and maybe participate..WOW how weird!!! So i spent the next hour...Just driving and thinking. Listening to music. I even found myself shedding tears...Do this mean I'm unhappy? I don't think so, I found that tears have been associated with unhappiness, and that's not always the case. SO many changes are going on right now in my life and they are all positive or at least most of them, and i come to realize that i have to take so me time every once in a while to gather all my thoughts so that i stay fresh and prepared for things..I strive to be the best i can at any given...So as i was driving i started to feel the 2 Carmel coffee's, So i stopped at Starbucks to use the restroom, and as i was walking back to my car. I seen a couple on a date (I'm guessing) but i heard the guy say, "you are the girl i want to be with, your perfect" OMG i actually started crying..smiling all the way back to the car..Why am i so emotional when it comes to stuff like that..Man all i could think about was the joy she was probably feeling, IF i was this happy for her just hear what he said..It wasn't even directed to me..lol Please dont get me started..but quickly i will say~! Listening to Mario's Song I choose you, ( listen to it, BOMB) I just keep thinking how good it must feel to be in full fledged love with someone. knowing that there is no one else on his/ her mind but you. knowing u will never have to be alone again..Damn, Love, some say overrated, but I say its Well need & appreciated...Well that's my Indifferent Night. I plan on having this every Sunday. I had so much on my mind. Perfect way to release it all...