Feet returning to the ground. But can I sleep please. I just want to sleep

For one.. It's the sigh of relief while moving on. For the other, it's the tightening of the lungs to force another breath trying to understand. 

Crying out to GOD just to be able to sleep thru the night, but thoughts and dismay cloud the room. 

Pretending it's okay, won't make the disappointment go away. 

No more please LORD, I pray! Please NO MORE. It kinda hurts. 

I hope it's okay to cry over disappointment. I remained hopeful as I prayed. Maybe I didn't pray hard enough.