As the dust settles

The period of total shock, embarrassment & disappointment is starting to slowly fade, which leaves room for reality to enter.  

What I thought would be a perfect journey has hit a dead end. The reality is, I encountered another failed attempt at what I so patiently yet anticipated. 

Feeling some type of way.. 

**investments** my 1:45am thoughts

Love is one of the biggest investments & challenges one can have in their life time (in my opinion) most of us spend a large portion of our lives trying to figure it out. It's a journey as a single individual who is truly interested in falling/being & staying in love. I have been told monetary items are, but I disagree. When you have desire to love, there are so many risk factors to dating & trusting that you are picking the right one & if not, there's the results of disappointment, heart break which can really hurt you emotionally, physically & breaks you spiritually. Every time you decide to re-enter the race after a unsuccessful attempt, it seems your value begins to decrease. Love is a great investment that isn't guaranteed to pay off. Especially in a generation where the value has depreciated down to the bare minimum. So what does that do to the hopefuls? 

I pray that those who have accomplished the element of finding the person they are in love with, they stay & continue to love. Don't give up/ don't take for granted. Invest what you can, because the pool of success is rough. Hope there is still hope... Just my thoughts   

Tricks

Mentally your questioning 

Physically your tired 

Emotionally your broken 

Spiritually your hopefully 

Verbally your fine 

Realistically you made it thru the worst of times 

Never doubt your life ❤️

Feet returning to the ground. But can I sleep please. I just want to sleep

For one.. It's the sigh of relief while moving on. For the other, it's the tightening of the lungs to force another breath trying to understand. 

Crying out to GOD just to be able to sleep thru the night, but thoughts and dismay cloud the room. 

Pretending it's okay, won't make the disappointment go away. 

No more please LORD, I pray! Please NO MORE. It kinda hurts. 

I hope it's okay to cry over disappointment. I remained hopeful as I prayed. Maybe I didn't pray hard enough. 

Cherish those

My quote

Love your self enough to know when to move on.... 

Getting comfortable w/ me

I'm learning to value me just a little more than I do others