Blocks

Funny how your feelings go from one extreme to the next!

Then .... I thought about something key to why!
1- I was blocked me from all social network accounts 👀! Whatever but it's more so why it was done!! Everything im bring blocked from seeing ✨✨NEWS FLASH✨✨ I already know!! Hahahaha

I'm a believer that once a person brings bad energy to your life. It's well over their time.

Preparing

Tonight is a rather difficult night of preparing. I say this because tomorrow morning I will be sitting in the courtroom with the very person who so selflessly took the life of one of my dear friends. It's been just slightly over a year and the thought of her murder still hunts me. I try to keep only positive memories a float in my head. Causing me to shed several tears at the thought that those are the only memories I will EVER be left with. I have pondered in my head all day.
How am I gonna feel once I lay my eyes on him?
What emotions will fill my heart?

I pray that GOD would release any emotions of hate that might be swarming to unleash tomorrow! Because ultimately it is not I, her mom, family or even her precious son who he will finally answer to. NO!!! It is larger than that! Not even the Riverside county court judge will be that powerful. It will be the greatest, grandest & most superior judge that will be waiting patiently for that trial. And he will have to account for everything.
Preparing for this has not been easy! I have really replayed or shall I say pre- predicted the timeline.

So all I can do tonight! Is PRAY! Pray GOD holds the entire world as we all who loves her prepare ourselves. Pray there is no ounce of hater being cooked up! Pray God comforts & consoles each and every heart.

Sky high

Lifted above the limitations of my fears
Speaking as the despair of faith fills my vessels.
Romancing the idea of stability in its simplest form.
Risking the distance beyond the sights of temptation
How you elevate yourself to capture peace.

One word: GOD

Forgetful words

What happen to these words!
What happen to the meaning
It wasn't the song! No it wasn't
It was everything beyond the song.
In case you forgot! Play it again.
But this time block out the song.
It's the lyrics! The words..
THE WORDS-- the words--the words THE words jay!!
Think about each line! IT'S the words. What do you value. I have cried
It's the words jay- It's the words

Under going

Emotional awareness o

The truth of the dream

Woke up from my dream & realized the thoughts I have posed within this cloudy depiction of a reality was truly my living nightmare.