It's gets so hard

Sometimes I miss him so much! I wonder when the thoughts will disappear. But those are the times I have to force my mind to take back control from my heart 
Why doesn't the heart come with a manual? At least then I could read on how to stop it from feeling so much.

When family loves one another. They make sure to make an effort to care about the well being of the ones. So why is it that when couples part ways do they find it convenient to turn away and never look back. I'm guilt of this. But why! You go on for months & years about loving this person! But once you break up! It's as if they vanish off this earth. It's like their well being is no longer a concern. GOD doesn't tell us, that he loves us or cares about us ONLY when were doing everything right! NO he loves us unconditionally. Right/wrong sin/saint we are given his love, guidance, & favor. So, with this mentality. Why am I still guilty of this?