Friday, December 9, 2011
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Challenges
Today was such a challenging day! I was faced with a painful & difficult incident I had to address at work. Being in a position where you are faced with so many different levels, you have to expect the unexpected.
I really have a hard time understand what makes a person think abuse is okay. For an individual to inflict harm on a defenseless other, has me sick to my stomach. I can't make any assumption of what someone is capable of, even acquisitions are sick.
Whoa... What a day!!! :(
I really have a hard time understand what makes a person think abuse is okay. For an individual to inflict harm on a defenseless other, has me sick to my stomach. I can't make any assumption of what someone is capable of, even acquisitions are sick.
Whoa... What a day!!! :(
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
I seen her....
Lol.. So im laughing at this twitter post I read awhile back.. It's said something along the lines of: you can always tell the individual who after or in the running to place a bid on what u got ( mean ur man/woman) by the amount of status comments they leave or likes.
That's so funny! Because that just popped in my head while im sitting here at work. Im not saying it entirely true.. But that would make sense.. Lol even when you yourself are interested slighty in someone whether your trying to pursue them or not but Making your self seen is important. I know that a way I always knew who was either trying to step in my space or who actually had a foot in. Even before It was confirmed. Lol
Just a small side note for the morning <3
That's so funny! Because that just popped in my head while im sitting here at work. Im not saying it entirely true.. But that would make sense.. Lol even when you yourself are interested slighty in someone whether your trying to pursue them or not but Making your self seen is important. I know that a way I always knew who was either trying to step in my space or who actually had a foot in. Even before It was confirmed. Lol
Just a small side note for the morning <3
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Revealed
Good morning....
Last night I learned a important fact about myself. As of lately, I have picked up that thing that makes me feel like I'm worth something, gives me a purpose, a piece of mind & some sanity. Writing... What more can I say! I love writing. I'm not sure why I was given this passion, but it comforts me. But these are things that I already knew. What I have learned is that, writing is helping me put my life into perspective. I'm realizing how much pain is really buried deep within. Things that I thought had vanished are now surfacing, because I have not yet dealt with them. Things that date back further than a failed relationship. I'm infamous for taking the things that are affecting me & pushing them in the back of my heart & hiding them from myself. But because they are in the cavities of my heart. I may not be able to see them but I can definitely feel them.
Life hasn't been my strongest task, I rarely tell people how I feel. I reject a familiar face in fear it will fade with time. I lack affection, because I don't know it. I suffer from neglect of being treasured. I overly shower others with gifts, support & love because I fear the day another feels a ounce of what I allow myself to feel because I restrict myself from Receiving from others.
So what do you tell a person like me. it's not something that is deadly, but what I feel restricts me from enjoying life entirely. Many look at the external and see someone who has it all together. But truth is.... I only appear externally what I strive to be internally. Im writing more and more daily, trying to drag out all the insecurities, self- doubt, imperfections and hurt, So I continue to write......
Last night I learned a important fact about myself. As of lately, I have picked up that thing that makes me feel like I'm worth something, gives me a purpose, a piece of mind & some sanity. Writing... What more can I say! I love writing. I'm not sure why I was given this passion, but it comforts me. But these are things that I already knew. What I have learned is that, writing is helping me put my life into perspective. I'm realizing how much pain is really buried deep within. Things that I thought had vanished are now surfacing, because I have not yet dealt with them. Things that date back further than a failed relationship. I'm infamous for taking the things that are affecting me & pushing them in the back of my heart & hiding them from myself. But because they are in the cavities of my heart. I may not be able to see them but I can definitely feel them.
Life hasn't been my strongest task, I rarely tell people how I feel. I reject a familiar face in fear it will fade with time. I lack affection, because I don't know it. I suffer from neglect of being treasured. I overly shower others with gifts, support & love because I fear the day another feels a ounce of what I allow myself to feel because I restrict myself from Receiving from others.
So what do you tell a person like me. it's not something that is deadly, but what I feel restricts me from enjoying life entirely. Many look at the external and see someone who has it all together. But truth is.... I only appear externally what I strive to be internally. Im writing more and more daily, trying to drag out all the insecurities, self- doubt, imperfections and hurt, So I continue to write......
Monday, December 5, 2011
Only on the time
I wonder why do people only call to talk to you when they are having a problem. I mean don't get me wrong, I will be the first person to extent myself to someone in their time of need. But I also would like to get a call simply just to see how my day is going or to chat a little about the good life. Yeah text messages are okay! But it seems good news comes thru text for a brief moment & bad news comes thru a long depress phone conversation. I guess that's the norm now days! It's becoming more of a trend to engage in text interaction then I would be real time. I really would appreciate our society becoming more compassionate for one another. A phone call & the sound of a voice can be very therapeutic. <3
That is all!! My thoughts
That is all!! My thoughts
Friday, December 2, 2011
Blast of the past
Well I'm up with a monster and my paper. But unfortunately I'm sitting here with 1st degree burns on my index & thumb... OUCH!!! it hurt so bad I can't even concentrate.
Got a surprise phone call tonight from Ex. I wasnt expecting that at all. It was really good hearing from him. He is actually a good ex, u know the ones you don't mind talking too. We enjoyed a hour long conversation. The thing I most enjoy about him in general is the amount of respect he has for me. We have been apart for at least 6-7 years but he still has so much respect and holds me fairly high. It's always great to know that a person values the person you are. I am so thankful that I'm often reminded that It's okay to interact with ppl of your past. Heck he & I even became Facebook friends today!
So after all that! I still have nothing on my notebook towards my paper... Smh
Well thanks Frankie for good convo, & now i am off too attempt to write this paper :(
Goodnight loves <3
Got a surprise phone call tonight from Ex. I wasnt expecting that at all. It was really good hearing from him. He is actually a good ex, u know the ones you don't mind talking too. We enjoyed a hour long conversation. The thing I most enjoy about him in general is the amount of respect he has for me. We have been apart for at least 6-7 years but he still has so much respect and holds me fairly high. It's always great to know that a person values the person you are. I am so thankful that I'm often reminded that It's okay to interact with ppl of your past. Heck he & I even became Facebook friends today!
So after all that! I still have nothing on my notebook towards my paper... Smh
Well thanks Frankie for good convo, & now i am off too attempt to write this paper :(
Goodnight loves <3
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Flying with time
What a week!!! I'm sitting here with a 10-14 page paper to do, decisions to make, a heart to mend, bills to pay, work in the morning and I'm writing.. With all that, I'm escaping & writing. Because the context of the information I'm writing about is more private than I can allow myself to post on this blog. I couldn't neglect the walls of this online blog. So I leave you with this:
A sudden brush of sound fills my ears. I'm escaping the reality of life & drowning my ears with the sounds of melody. Thank heavens for iPods. The noise in lyrics that is currently playing is as follows.....
I thought that things like this get better with time
But I still need you, why is that?
You're the only image in my mind
So I still see you... around
I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away. I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
Words don't ever seem to come out right
But I still mean them, why is that?
It hurts my pride to tell you how I feel
But I still need to, why is that?
I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
I said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
It don't matter who you are
It's so simple, a feeling
But it's everything
No matter who you love
It is so simple, a feeling
But it's everything
I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
I said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
It don't matter who you are
It's so simple, a feeling
But it's everything
No matter who you love
It is so simple, a feeling
But it's everything
A sudden brush of sound fills my ears. I'm escaping the reality of life & drowning my ears with the sounds of melody. Thank heavens for iPods. The noise in lyrics that is currently playing is as follows.....
I thought that things like this get better with time
But I still need you, why is that?
You're the only image in my mind
So I still see you... around
I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away. I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
Words don't ever seem to come out right
But I still mean them, why is that?
It hurts my pride to tell you how I feel
But I still need to, why is that?
I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
I said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
It don't matter who you are
It's so simple, a feeling
But it's everything
No matter who you love
It is so simple, a feeling
But it's everything
I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but you're away
I said I miss you, missing you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
It don't matter who you are
It's so simple, a feeling
But it's everything
No matter who you love
It is so simple, a feeling
But it's everything
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